white noise

It just hit me that when we want to close our eyes, when we make the music loud, specially with earphones on, its really like the christopher of mark haddon shouting loud. cuttting away from the world. cutting off all his senses. to have a clear mind.
And this is called white noise. yesterday was he first time i truly understood what was meant by that. Although its music playing in your ears. But it does not matter. Anything loud will do. And its strange because you could as well be asleep. but somehow you dont want to sleep. you want to be awake, with nothing in your mind. maybe a little indignation. a little anger. but nothing else. and you dont want to see or hear or know that anyone is around.
Are we all mad or is it just me?

Q: we should not let anyone else govern our lives.
More importantly we should not allow anyone else to govern our emotions. at least not someone who does not deserve it. It would be like giving your car to someone who doesnt know how to drive. And you know we dont let anyone drive.

I think this is why we write - " It is not a bad idea to get in the habit of writing down one's thoughts. It saves one having to bother anyone else with them. "