Rendezvousa

Me: yaar samajh nahi aa raha kya karna chahiye. jo karna chaho wo kar dena chahiye bina soche ki baaki logon pe kya asar padega. ya duniya mein kisi ki fikr nahi karni chahiye and jo apne aap ko theek lagta hai wo karna chahiye..

K: yaar tu bolta bahut hai.

Me: yaar main tere ko apna dost samajhta hoon isliye bol deta hoon jo...

K: fir wohi, dost hoon isiliye to tujhe kam bolna chahiye. i know what you mean. aur ek baat boloon: tu darpok hai.

Me: darpok..as in, i dont think so.

K: tu ye doosre kya sochenge etc etc bahane banata hai. actually tu karna hi nahi chahta hai kuch.

Me: its easy for you to say, you dont think about the world. society is a complicated thing my friend. agar main bhi teri conditions mein hota to shayad freely jaise tu sochta hai waise hi sochta. aur life ko complicate nahi karna chahiye. keep it simple. i know its sad now, but its simple.

K: haan i understand. agar saari conditions perfect hotin to tu fod deta.

Me: you know what, we should not talk. we should sit silently together like two people madly in love.

K: I know that you know my importance in your life. I know you wouldnt even let me go. Because you think that someday you will resume our relationship. when your conditions will be 'perfect'.

Me: maybe. i want to i mean, but i hope you understand the situation.

K: tujhe pata hai na tu bahut badal gaya hai. aaj se 4 saal pehle tu meri tarah hi sochta tha. pichle 4 saalon mein tu mere se door rehne laga. kabhi tune mujhse baat hi nahi kari. mujhe wishwaas tha ki tu kahin bhi chala jaye tu nahi badlega. but i now think i was wrong. sab badal jaate hain. I think tu mujhse darta tha. sach nahi bolna chahta tha kabhi.

Me: chhod yaar its getting hot in here. baad mein baat karte hain. gtg now

K: haan i know you have to go. you always have to go. take care