sleeping and dreaming

Sometimes it feels how is it possible to shut out your sensory system and go to sleep. How can you voluntary turn everything off. It would be better that you keep doing something and drop off to sleep from exhaustion. Why is it that you have to choose to lie down and force yourself to shut your eyes. And then there are so many thoughts in your mind. How does one choose to stop thinking. If you keep thinking you cannot possibly go to sleep. Kayi baar bada impossible lagta hai sona.

Sone wagarah se yaad aaya... found this book in papa's medical books ... Lectures on psychoanalysis by Sigmund Freud. :)) . Am reading it now. Already finished three lectures of Freud B-)

Also this weekend, when nanaji had that attack, i found out ki how much can I panic. I always believed that I would do good in crisis (Just like my father handles crisis). But I turned out to be more panicky like mummy, which by the way I always detested.

My brother nikhil was a lovely movie. Issues of homosexuality and aids very well and maturely handled. without the typical bollywood melodramatic scenes and dialogues. I always had a feeling that it would be a lovely movie. but everybody gave such bad reviews that i did not see it at that time. X(